i'm not sure if i want an "elder" - in the realm of age - in my life. as of late, all the older people i talk with seem to want to judge me and tell me that what i think and how i feel is wrong. it's hard to listen to "wisdom" when it is designed to condem and control. when i speak with elders, i am told how to act, what to think and when to think it. if i think outside their evagelical reality i am tage a "anti-christian" and ignored.

so, maybe i would rather have a good elder - someone who would guide without judging; someone who will share, without demanding i do everything they say and how they say it. maybe we are all looking for that elder, the one who cares, the one who loves, the one who listens - more then the one who talks. maybe, just maybe - when the time comes and we count the clock - we will be the elder's we desire - and not the ones we dread -

pax
john